Monday, November 30, 2009

.Haiku #78965.

God told me he'd quit
if i couldn't let you go,
lost grace to keep you.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


I lost myself,

in my own reflection.


Ever got so tied up in yourself you stopped really interacting with the world.  I have been there lately.  So twisted and tangled in my own vanity i stopped noticing the world around… Started tripping over things, started crashing into my own ego and in the midst of it all I lost myself. 

So how do I begin to start over?… Reading.  I need to find the artist in me… not the stressor, not the insecure human…. but i need to get in touch with me beyond the epidermis…


that starts today.


Im fasting from speaking negatively about myself… and really myself at all.  The next 48 hours will be about listening.


48 hours.  I will not speak about any insecurity I have.  Im going to stop putting negative things about myself  into the atmosphere.


Fast with me!

.Love like Coffee.

I poured you hot,

waited for you to


-just enough to drink you…

i never loved you sweet.

.Random Thought-#2672.

you were heavy today, more than weak arms could carry,

even your name proved too much for my tongue.

My lips, missed your smile dancing across them

and the moon… The moon called me and asked me

when was the last time we danced on satin clouds

in her gaze…


what happens when you feel you can’t pick up the pieces and those you manage to catch are all placed in the wrong place.  Ever feel like you just can’t get anything right?


The summer left me dry

hollow. weeping for spring.

Friday, November 27, 2009

.Random Thought-1368.

i used to write about the sky,

about longing and the human condition
and need i felt.

today, i
sky dived
from the moon,
landed at your feet
and still couldn't
summon the song
of all my past times.

I've written too many poems
about you, Love. And never
learned them.

I figured,
the longer i had ou tangible in my hands
the better i would get at holding you.

but the wind was always strong,
your rigid edges always cut,
and the red of my blood
was never vibrant enough to please you.

im no love poet.
just a being stuck,
in this condition
trying keep
you on paper.

Sunday, November 8, 2009


“Om Mani Padme Hung”


Compassion… What have you done for  anything/anyone else lately?


It’s so hard to not be twisted and tied up in life these days as a lot of us are trying to survive.  But in that exhausting feat of survival i dare each of you to live.


Chenrezig Sadhana, Tsangsar Tulku Rinpoche expands upon the mantra's meaning, taking its six syllables to represent the purification of the six realms of existence:[4]

Six Pāramitās
Samsaric realm
Symbol of the Deity
(Wish them) To be born in

Pride / Bliss
Perfect Realm of Potala

Jealousy / Lust for entertainment
Perfect Realm of Potala

Passion / desire
Body, speech, mind
quality and activity

Ignorance / prejudice
the presence of Protector (Chenrezig)

Poverty / possessiveness
Pretas (hungry ghosts)
Perfect Realm of Potala

Aggression / hatred
Quality of Compassion
the presence of the Lotus Throne (of Chenrezig)

Karandavyuha Sutra definition

The first known description of the mantra appears in the Karandavyuha Sutra (Chinese: 佛說大乘莊嚴寶王經 (Taisho Tripitaka 1050); English: Buddha speaks Mahayana Sublime Treasure King Sutra), which is part of certain Mahayana canons such as the Tibetan. In this sutra,Shakyamuni Buddha states, "This is the most beneficial mantra. Even I made this aspiration to all the million Buddhas and subsequently received this teaching from Buddha Amitabha."

(SOURCE:  Wikipedia)

I came across this while reading my “Finding the Buddha Within” book by Lama Surya Das.  He speaks about our paths and how sometimes you simply can not ignore your calling as a being connected to this earth.  At some point we all must unite with the clarity of life and walk our paths…


I especially love this chant.


Time to go to sleep!  Good night.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

.Sunday Grace.

I used to be embarrassed to rejoice and sing my praise for all the blessings God has given me… And For What?


Today…. I am thankful for having found the Woman in my life and my friends and family! We are traveling on a journey of life together…. Be thankful!


That is all…:) Life updates coming soon!!